Happiness

Is it generation gap?
Or is this just an excuse?

Bonded by blood ties,
yet the bond is this weak.
Sometimes,
I "actually" even wonder if I am their biological son.
It pains,
it really does.
17 Years,
going on 18.

Is there really no way out?
I'm SICK and TIRED.
I get tired and weak.
In your eyes,
I am forever not grown up.
In your eyes,
I am stupid.
In your eyes,
everything I've done is wrong.
Forget it.

I accomodate to your curfews. (goodness sake, im 17 going 18 and still having curfews)

You will never understand the kind of feeling at the end of a production.
When you look at the childrens eyes and that you have changed part of their lives.
When you look at parents and you see genuine tears in their eyes.

It's not only a show.
It's not only a job.
It's not only an operation.
But it's happiness.

"Why do you always have to hang out with them?"

Because thats where I feel happiness.
And it's because of them,
I wont give up.

And YOU will never understand this happiness.

Beginning...

Perhaps it's the beliefs.
Maybe the thoughts?
One is where I believe and trust.
One is where I grew up.

Two choices,
one decision
Are things that simple?
Maybe if it was really just a decision between the choices,
things wouldn't be this complicated.
Can't I have the two choices?

This is just the beginning...