2010

Year 2010,
And it begins...

The Fight Continues

Just like a broken down vehicle,
with some maintenance -
on the road it tours once again.

Because nothing will ever be too tough.

The Piano

Since young,
I've always wanted to learn the piano.
Never had a chance.
To my parents,
piano was something the rich play.
To them,
I only wanted to learn the piano,
to be in the crowd

Until now,
I haven't really learnt the piano.
Thanks to Dree,
I had my first lesson on the keyboard -
as well as reading notes.
Here comes the part where I got confused by "ABCDEFG". -.-!

Had a "dejavu" while playing the keyboard.
G once said that having a "dejavu" means that you're on the right path.

One day,
I'll be sitting infront of a piano,
playing the notes of "Fairy Tale" aka 童话 by 光良.
That's when I'll prove,
prove that they've always been wrong.

And none of my dreams were realised by them.
Alas, the fight continues.

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In addition,
plans have been rather smooth the past few days.
The best yet so far.
A week to common test aka exams -
that's what you get in poly.
Time to switch the engine to max,
once again.

Credits

Life

It's true,
many things in life don't go our way,
or how we want things to happen.
Still have to overcome the many challenges,
the many phobia and barriers that's built upon us.

Life is too short to live with regrets.
This time,
I don't ask "what if",
but instead find the answer.

I enter every single day,
from the smell of morning dew,
carrying question marks above my mind.
Every second,
I search for the answer to these questions.
And whenever one question mark disappears,
I know -
I've grown better,
smarter,
wiser.

Self-Realization

Like what the usual Yi Wei would do once in awhile.
Reflecting things that have happened.
Things that happened 3-4 years.
Looking at those post,
it seemed like I wasn't who I was.
It's almost like you no longer recognize the you in the past.

From Sec 3 to 4,
then towards Poly year 1,
and if things go smoothly,
year 2. In no time,
you guys would probably see me bald,
in green digitize patterned uniform.

I don't really think it's a waste of time,
call it self-realization.
And I guess that's what people need.
And the end of the "reflection",
I never fail to put a slight smile.

Thinking,
I've changed,
Yes for the better.
And things will only get better.

Call me weird,
that's me. =]

Illusion

Illusion as it defines,
in a distorted state of mind.
Picturing something that isn't there.
A projected thought.
Or perhaps,
an imagination.

Not this time.
It's not true,
yes I tell myself,
it's just an illusion...

Happiness

Is it generation gap?
Or is this just an excuse?

Bonded by blood ties,
yet the bond is this weak.
Sometimes,
I "actually" even wonder if I am their biological son.
It pains,
it really does.
17 Years,
going on 18.

Is there really no way out?
I'm SICK and TIRED.
I get tired and weak.
In your eyes,
I am forever not grown up.
In your eyes,
I am stupid.
In your eyes,
everything I've done is wrong.
Forget it.

I accomodate to your curfews. (goodness sake, im 17 going 18 and still having curfews)

You will never understand the kind of feeling at the end of a production.
When you look at the childrens eyes and that you have changed part of their lives.
When you look at parents and you see genuine tears in their eyes.

It's not only a show.
It's not only a job.
It's not only an operation.
But it's happiness.

"Why do you always have to hang out with them?"

Because thats where I feel happiness.
And it's because of them,
I wont give up.

And YOU will never understand this happiness.